Substance Of My Psychosis

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Hagenhogg feel pure psychosis poetry........

......if you ( or me? ^^ ;-) =
"....sold you're soul to the devil. And because you can't get it back...... every weekend you crawl into hell , and rape your own soul.. just to feel her power again" ...

this song helped me to get over it .... thx dude !
and maybe never forget .....
"Trust yourself !!"
You have survived a lot and you will survive whatever is coming....
-> It's so important to make someone happy... start wih yourself <3 ..enjoy life!.. Favorite track: Nothing In Nothingness.
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This is the First Full-Length of About Abortions. This Album contains 6 Songs. Physical CD is Available by CVLMINIS – Rigorism Production www.rigorismprod.ru
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released November 26, 2013

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Track Name: Amputation Of Torment
AMPUTATION OF TORMENT Lyrics:

Amputation of Torment is to die,
Amputation of Torment is don’t exist,
Amputation of Torment don’t run from you,
Amputation of Torment is you best friend!!! …
Mankind with staring eyes,
Mankind with wide open eyes,
Mankind with veiled eyes,
Mankind … I Hate Mankind!!! …

Amputation of Torment is to end it all,
Amputation of Torment is cease to be lost,
Amputation of Torment is only dissolve,
Amputation of Torment just need to me!!! …
Mankind with closed ears,
Mankind with plugged ears,
Mankind with ripped ears,
Mankind … I Abhor Mankind!!! …
Today I live, because I haven’t found the way …
Todau I live, because I haven’t found a legal way
To take away from here!!!
To take away from here!!!
To take away from here!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAARRRRRRGH!!!

Mankind with open mouth,
Mankind with lange mouth,
Mankind with corrupted mouth,
Mankind … I Scorn Mankind!!! …

You don’t understand my tears,
You don’t understand my situation,
You can’t understand my screams,
You can’t understand my depression!!! …

Mankind … I Hate Mankind!!!
Mankind … I Abhor Mankind!!!
Mankind … I Scorn Mankind!!!
Mankind … I Fuck Mankind …
… With my departure!!! …

These are the Substance Of My Psychosis …
These are the Substance Of My Psychosis …
These are just My Psychosis ....
These are … Only My Dreams!!! …
Track Name: Nothing In Nothingness
NOTHING IN NOTHINGNESS Lyrics:

Why can’t I open that ?
Why all the senses die ?
And I’ll coming to tomorrow
Empty of hopes
Empty of awerness
Empty spaces devour me
Empty lies persecute me
I… I will not reach until tomorrow!!!...
Why can’t I open that ?
Why can’t I open my eyes ?
Why can’t I open my mouth?
Screaming out loud at the sky
Screaming out loud all my cry
Why?...Tell me why??...
Why can’t I open that ?
Why can’t I open my eyes ?
Why can’t I open my mouth?
Screaming out loud at the endless night ?
No more senses , No more pride
Only … Only my little carcase
Expanded in every pieces of universe

And I will die alone
Deep in my house
Deep in my empty spaces
Void of Utility

Why can’t I open that ?
Why can’t I reach to tomorrow ?
Why can’t I touch the emotions ?
I …I’m Nothing in Nothingness !!! …

Why can’t I open that ?
Why can’t I open my eyes ?
Why can’t I open my mouth?
Screaming out loud at the endless night ?
No more senses , No more pride
Only … Only my little carcase
Expanded in every little pieces of universe

Why can’t I open that ?
Why can’t I reach to tomorrow ?
Why can’t I touch the emotions ?
I …I’m Nothing in Nothingness !!! …
I can’t open that…
I can’t reach until tomorrow…
I can’t touch the emotions…
I…I’m Nothing In Nothingness!!!...
Track Name: Dissolve In The Wind
DISSOLVE IN THE WIND Lyrics:

... The activity of the fade complete me ...
Upwind, I run master of myself,
Adversity hinder me…
And I think to the future…
... That ... there is no future ...
... That there is nothing except me! …
... That there is nothing except me! ...

Like an egoist who dance in the fire,
I wiggle in through the anguish,
But egoist is a word unjust,
I merely, I wiggle in through the anguish ...

In my solitude and my isolation
I pay for my sentence ...
In my solitude and my isolation
I pay for my sentence ...
In my solitude and my isolation
You must pay for my sentence!!!...
Dirty People, pays for me!!!...

Like an egoist who dance in the fire,
I wiggle in through the anguish,
But egoist is a word unjust,
I merely, I wiggle in through the anguish …

... Maybe it's time to go ...
... Maybe it's time to go ...
… No, isn’t time to go …
… No, isn’t time to go …
… Motherfuckers!!! ...

... The years kill me! ...
... The months kill me! ...
... The hours kill me! ...
… The minutes kill me! …
... And my every moment ...
… Kill me!!! ...

... The activity of the fade complete me ...
I just want to dissolve me without suffering ...
... The activity of disappearing makes me feel good!!!

... Look at me! ... Now I'm here ...
... Now I’m here no more!
Ehy,you! ... Look at me! ... Now I'm here ...
... Now I’m here no more!
... Look at me! ... You can't see me,
And I can't look at more into your dirty face! ...
Hey! ... Look at me! ... You can't see me,
And I can't look at more into your dirty face! ...

... The activity of the fade completes me ...
Upwind, I run master of myself,
Adversity hinder me…
And I think to the future…
... That ... there is no future ...
... That there is nothing except me! …
... That ... there is no future ...
... That there is nothing except me! …

Like an egoist who dance in the fire,
I wiggle in through the anguish,
But egoist is a word unjust,
I merely, I wiggle in through the anguish ...

The man who completely buried me,
He buried me, Into Myself …
The man who completely buried me,
He’s only Myself, He’s just Myself!
And you who believe to make me disappear,
You, motherfucker, you can’t do it, no more!
And I can’t look at more into you dirty face! …
... Now ... i'm complete ... Now I feel complete! ...
... Now ... i'm complete ... Now I feel complete! ...
Track Name: Last Breath Of Sorrow
LAST BREATH OF SORROW Lyrics:

I don’t know how to move
There is slime all around me
I sink in a swamp of cosmic delirium
That swallow me
And I can no longer breathe
I can’t move any more
As the king of the chess,
Trapped in a deadly grip
I start my day with pain
I continue my journey into the sorrow
The only thing left for me is the breath
Painful, wheezing, senseless and dying
A breath that it narrows me the chest
For every my wind, for every my whiff
But by now I breathe only of with an oxygen tank
I'll put my image on the back burner of thoughts
I will cover every my habit
Only of unnecessary gasps
I can no longer move
Inside Telematics Inside quicksand
I don’t know how to move
Inside cyber swamps
Bad people want to squash me
Virtual people want to kill me
I can ’t do anything against them
But I’m fighting with all my strength
In any case I’m sinking slowly
In their cyber swamp
Drowning without escape
And leaving in the air
Only… Only my last breath of sorrow
I don’t know how to move
There is slime all around me
I sink in a damned swamp
Of a cosmic delirium
I can’t move any more
Like the King of the chess
Trapped in a Deadly Grip
But by now just I breath
Only with an Oxygen tank

… They are only MotherFuckers
Who make attempt on my empty life…

Bad People want to squash me
Virtual People want to suicide me
I can ’t do anything against them
But I’m fighting with all my strength
In any case I’m sinking slowly
In their cyber swamp
Drowning without escape
And leaving in the air
Only… Only my last breath of sorrow
Track Name: White Death Into The Sleep
WHITE DEATH IN THE SLEEP Lyrics:

The boiler don't worked very well
I realized this and I don't cared
I let the things go their own way
Only myself cadaverous
With the death printed in the face
Doctors say me that I'm alive
Doctors tell me that it was been luck
Doctors can't enter in my head
Only pain and suffering
Only the sorrow reigns in my head

Doctors can't enter in my dreams
Only a ticket on my bed
I wrote just on this blank sheet
Sorry of to be born
Sorry of to be born, again…

The first time I tried with a razor blade
The second time, the rope untied itself
The third time I threw me into the lake
But I'm not drowning, I’ve not suffocated
Another time I jumped from a bridge
But it was too low and I had no damage
The last time with my boiler flawed
And now I'm here with these doctors
Doctors can't enter in my head
Doctors can't enter in my dreams
I wrote just on this black sheet
Sorry of to be born
Sorry of to be born, again...

I'm admitted to hospital
And I stole a bit of Nembital
Now I inject me and I go to Kip
Finally White Death Into The Sleep

Early in the morning the nurses come
They see that I sleep quiet into the light sun
Anyone can’t save me now
Only myself Cadaverous
Only myself Cadaverous there!

Now the doctors can't save me, no more
Finally I’m dead and I’m sure
Only this ticket on my veins
Sorry of to be born
Sorry of to be born, again ...
(… Only Myself Cadaverous …
… Only Myself Cadaverous …)